Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Still Waiting..

Have you ever had this experience, when you – say—have a lunch date at 1:00, or a dentist appointment at 3 in the afternoon, or whatever; and you’re sort of stuck, because it’s in the middle of the day, there’s not enough time to do anything else, you don’t even bother because you don’t want to start and then stop after a while. And so you hang around, anticipate, wait for time to pass, and end up accomplishing absolutely nothing???

Well for those who say yes, thank you! Because, this happens to me ALL the time, ‘cept this time, in a larger (-than-life) scale.

I just got accepted for a job. Only, it’s taking so long for them to call back. I feel like I can't move. I can't do the things I want to do because I know that I'll be starting any minute from now. I won't know how to schedule yoga and painting classes around work, because I don’t have that work schedule to begin with! And all this waiting is driving me nuts. And guess what, it won’t necessarily be this frustrating if I haven’t been a bum for 8 months.
Yes, that’s right, 8 (!!!) FREAKIN’ months. I’m just so bored. I feel totally useless-- not to mention penniless-- and I’m just so tired of doing nothing important.
This was definitely NOT how I planned it to be. It’s ironic, really. I had so many plans for myself. I wanted to do sooo many things. And now look what happened!

Oogway from Kung Fu Panda said, “The past is history, the future a mystery, but today? Today is a gift. That’s why it’s called the present.”

Wise turtle.

I was just about to fall asleep last night when I realized what my problem is: I plan too much. I keep daydreaming on what I would like to do in the future -- new stuff I'd like to try out, what my first job would be, what my second job would be, what country I’d fly off to, how old I should be when that happens, I just kept thinking of the future. And I wanted it all to happen so soon! 1 – 2 years kind of soon.
Unrealistic. Yeah, I know. I wanted to be as young as possible when it all happens.

Well big HAHA for me! Reality is apparently WORLDS different from, well, daydreams.

I was actually trying looking for things that would fit into that picture in my head. I kept thinking of tomorrow, next month, next year, and so on.

Well, that’s just stupid. We should all live for the moment and have fun. We should grab on to the opportunities available today, and start making our way towards the future. Planning is important, too. But we shouldn’t plan too far ahead. Based on my experience, it just ruins everything. Successful people, once they realize what they want to do, they just go ahead and do it. They start now, today, on this moment. Waiting for the right time never seems to accomplish anything, again, based on my experience. Just do it. We’ll never know unless we try.

The movie Something's Got to Give kept playing on HBO. Diane Keaton said something that really struck a note. She said, “So I say this with all my heart, what are you waiting for?”

1 comment:

  1. hi marj bebe! from the looks of it, you may have to kick this post away coz you're finally an ICU nurse.

    and oh, i HATE HATE that i was oblivious to the fact that something's got to give KEPT ON PLAYING on HBO. because i was actually waiting for it to be aired and now i just found out that it's done being aired. waaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

    i loff your blog and i'll be tagging it to the blogs i follow.

    missing you marj bebe.