Thursday, April 7, 2011


Sometimes, I just feel like banging my head against the wall. How do they do it?! The artists I see in blogs, and televisions? Where do they get all the creative energy, the inspiration, the ideas, the active imagination? Day after day, time after time, I see beautiful creations, breath-taking pictures, and enticing works of art that just make my mouth water. How I long to create something as beautiful, something as inspiring. I'm a tortured soul. Really. The problem is my interest exceeds talent and my desire exceeds my creative capacity. I so envy the artists who are able to live life with such passion and love for their work. I try. I do, maybe not enough at times, but I do. And yet -- nothing. I was never fully satisfies with the artworks I created. I always feel like something is missing. I feel like I need to break free from some wall or some barrier that could possibly be holding me back from a pool of creative and inspirational power. I want to feel that aha! moment - that moment where everything comes together, when everything is suddenly crystal clear, as it is written in big bold letters in front of your face saying, THIS IS WHAT YOUR GOOD AT, THIS IS THE STYLE FOR YOU, THIS IS WHAT YOU MUST DO. How do they do it? How is it so natural to them? This is the greatest mystery of my life.

Friday, March 25, 2011

I NEED INSPIRATION! won't some one help me?? :c

All the time in the world is o good without solid, heart-thumping, lightbulb-moment, yes-this-is-it inspiration!

Monday, March 14, 2011

Gloomy Monday

A bit of depressing news for you this rainy Monday morning. A family of four, along with 2 of their help, died in a fire in Quezon City. The fire was said to have been caused by a car parked outside their house. The fire started at dawn and everyone was fast asleep. It must have been too late by the time they woke up. Rescuers found all 6 bodies all huddled up together. One of the children was my cousin's college classmate. What a way to start the week.

Tears threatened to fall when my dad told me about this. Who would have thought that such a sad and terrible thing would happen to an innocent family? I don't know these people, but my whole heart goes out to them and to everyone they left behind. This, I suppose, serves as a reminder to the rest of us. Nothing is permanent, and the future is as uncertain as it is iminent. Each day that we are alive - each and every minute that we are breathing and speaking and moving and thinking and dreaming and loving - is a gift; a gift that we so often take for granted.

With everything that has been going on around the world -- the earthquake and tsunami in Japan, the civil wars in Yemen, and all other heartbreaking news -- it makes you wonder what other things we living being must endure. After hearing the news, I immediately thought of all my family, my friends, my boyfriend, and everyone I hold dear. Now is as good a time as any to tell them how much I love and appreaciate them. Cliche, but true.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Yes or no?

When a man says no, he means no.

When a woman says no, she means no.. I mean, yes ..I mean, depending on the situation.. but not really, no, no is fine, unless you really want to, but I'm not forcing you..

I can see why men get confused. Sorry guys. As much as I hate to admit it, it's just how we, girls, are.

Just yesterday, I arrived in Manila from a late afternoon flight. My boyfriend and I had planned on meeting because we hadn't seen each other for weeks. But because of the rainy weather, flights had gotten delayed and I arrived later than scheduled. So I told him that we could meet the following evening, since he had to work early the following morning. And well.. he agreed.

Of course, with the usual, "Are you sure?" and "I'm sorry, I don't want to disappoint you." But he agreed anyways.
I know, I know, I asked for it. Stupid, stupid! Thing is, I half expected him to say, "No, I'll still come see you, don't worry." But he didn't. I went all moody and sour on him. He kept asking if it really was ok, and needless to say, I said yes (when I actually meant no). I was sincere in my intentions. Really, I was. I just couldn't help it.

But, no worries. Because I got my happy ending anyway. He came (^^,). He actually came over to see me even though it was late, and told me he was kidding the whole time. He really didn't plan on NOT seeing me. It was a lovely surprise. I had hearts all over my eyes when I opened the gate to see his car parked outside. It turns out, that men aren't really as dense as we think. ^^,